2020 was the year of being stuck. It even shows it in the numbers…not going up, not going down…stuck with two of the same numbers: 2020. Stuck at home, stuck out of the gym, stuck out of the bar…stuck without family. Stuck!
So here we are in 2021 and I would like to believe this is the year of moving forward, making progress taking the next step…it is even in the numbers as well. What comes after 20? 21! Turning a new year does not magically change things in our lives, but it gives us new hope and new vision and I pray that for all reading this, 2021 gives you more of the good stuff.
I pray it gives more opportunities, more clarity and more more promise of the good things yet to come. For me, that is more therapy in the areas I need to develop new habits and mindsets; More working out and putting into my body the fuel that sustains. More quality time with the relationships that feed what is good, noble, honest and true. Finally, more falling in love with my Creator and King. More knowing who He is and how He created me to serve Him.
The year of 2020 had great purpose in our stuckness…but 2021 is of great significance too! No accident the numbers fall in line in an order of progression. It is time…progress is waiting!
Last year leading into 2020 I posted that the good Lord put a word of the year on my heart that I hated. This word confused me, angered me and I was embarrassed to share it.
The word was vulnerable.
I remember sharing it with others and saying…I do not get it, but this is the word. Flash forward to the end of 2020 and this word has been all over the place! Definitely a Covid 19 word. God prepared the way for my heart with this word.
I grew vulnerable with my students and how I learn to love them. Vulnerable in my marriage with sharing my concerns. Vulnerable with my child that he will not always be perfect and that is okay. Vulnerable with hugs and touch and phone calls that I normally do not like. It also led me to start the foster care process to love the vulnerable that need to know they are loved.
This word led me to the writing and documentary of Brene Brown and her insight and wisdom. This word changed me. This word grew me. God used it in big ways and continues to challenge me with the truth.
Vulnerable started out as an insult but has become a sign of God’s sovereignty.
My Facebook feed is full of Resolutions, Vision Boards, Goal setting and so much more to welcome in the New Year. I love a good goal setting party and I especially love having a plan, but reading these exhaust me each year and I have been trying to understand why.
Here are some ideas:
I am a quitter so I quit even before I start? (Enneagram 9 problems)
It exhausts me to plan for all that work.
Jealousy for that kind of vision.
I think for me it hypes up the I will, the I want, and the Someday leaving behind the right now. (This is also why I cannot do Pinterest.) I know we all need vision and goals for many jobs, projects and ideas, but I want to live my life in the present. I refuse to miss out on the many moments of now. All of this writing will be frowned upon by many successful people including the great Rachel Hollis that has built her empire on goals, visions and more. I cannot wrong them as they are sitting in private jets while I am behind this outdated computer, but I want contentment. I want to be a visionary while appreciating the magic of today. I choose to celebrate the new year with a new word and a new saying to live by.
Previous words and years:
Do it afraid. Do not let your fear be greater than your faith. Change is an opportunity to do something amazing. Wherever you are, be all there.
The words that went with these sayings were balance, faith, fearlessness, presence and selfless.
This year my big word is VULNERABLE with the saying “What you know matters, who you are MATTERS MORE.
I want my year, my experiences, my adventures to be full of connectedness, whole-heart and all-in kinda-live-in-the-moment opportunities. Vulnerable is hard for me since it can be seen as weakness, but I see it as courage to put myself out there and really feel. No holding back. I always say that I do not choose the word-it chooses me. God plants a seed and then I wait and listen until he speaks up to confirm. I thought at one time it was journey, but then the V word just kept popping back up until I finally surrendered.
So good for you if you can handle the resolutions and goals of tomorrow. Not knocking the idea, but just saying it does not work for me. I do have all the supplies for a vision board that may someday come to life, but for now I am excited about what being vulnerable in my relationships and moments of now might bring. For my first vulnerable step of 2020, I upgraded this blog to a premium site! It may not bring me any more traffic, likes or comments, but I feel it validates (another v word) that I want this to be more than just for myself. So I am putting my words out there to see what might happen.