Category Archives: Lupus

Lupus Update and Reality

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I got my 2nd chest xray recently and the results of the awkward 24 hour urine test (so gross to capture my pee for 24 hours straight).

The urine test confirmed high protein so now I go to a kidney doctor to get biopsy and learn more. The doctor should be able to put me on the right drug to calm the disease.

The xray showed no progress so they conclude it is not pneumonia, but rather my scoliosis crowding my lungs. It is weird since I had symptoms of congestion and cough and the antibiotics helped. However, the xray revealed just crowded organs with a suggested follow up to be sure.

Basically we have to calm the disease before it continues to attack more organs. I have seen improvement since being less stressed and off of work. Resting more and doing things I enjoy and relaxing. I gained 9 pounds since May. True blessing!!

So now we explore how to help my kidneys and calm the disease so “Lupus will stop doing what Lupus does which is attack healthy cells and your body.”

The journey continues!

Lupus Gone Wild-Health Update

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The hair loss, weight loss, cramps, stomach issues, swollen joints, ulcers, skin rash and night sweats….were all a result of Lupus.

Not a disease.

Not Rheumatoid Arthritis.

Not Celiac Disease.

The Lupus I have always had, just very active. There are still kidney issues that are likely a result of my Lupus gone wild, but Lupus is the disease that created the drama.

So yeah…this disease sucks.

Real Talk About Lupus!

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Lupus is sneaky. It mask itself as several diseases. It is hard to diagnose, has no cure, and even more challenging to treat. No one experiences Lupus the same way. No doctor has quite figured it out. It is your body attacking itself.

Fatigue, joint pain, rash…the main symptoms, but there are so many more! Some that only appear when you get sick. Getting sick is tricky because it looks like a Lupus flare, but could be so much more just hard to tell.

So hug your friends with autoimmune diseases. Their pain and hurt is real and hard to share since they do not look sick, but feel sick all the time. Their good days are some of your worst. Stress is a trigger which some jobs and relationships are stressful all the time. Working out helps, but also makes you even more tired. You.just.can’t.win.

You have it long enough and you no longer want to complain, so make sure they do not have to…just love on them all the time.

Who Doesn’t Have 30 Minutes?

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My recent health Journey had me put a hold on intense workouts. For one, I had no calories to burn. For two, the workouts wore me out with my low body weight and muscle burn. Little did I know these last couple of months I had pneumonia and possible kidney disease (we are learning more with tests).

I know a key to handling Lupus is exercise and it workouts are so good for my stress. Add in that at this weight, muscle tone and definition is so nice. And you cannot forget it is swimsuit season so even though I struggle with my bony frame and hair loss…I want to look as good as possible.

Smaller chested brunettešŸ˜‰

Although it feels like I am wasting my Camp Gladiator membership…I have started utilizing the website. Specifically, on demand workouts and quick hitters. 30 minute workouts targeting the areas you want to grow. Who does not have 30 minutes to take care of yourself?

Choose the time, the area of focus, the trainer- it is all up to you. Great for those that cannot go all in, but cannot afford to give up.

Lupus/Health Journey 4 and Adoption Day

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Happy Adoption Day to Callen! 9 years ago yesterday we made his Adoption official in a courthouse in Houston!

Had another appointment with a Rheumatologist and it is getting expensive with co-pays! Found more protein in the urine so now we do a 24 hour Urine test which is gross and kinda tedious. Holing to find more answers!

Health Journey 3

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Well, after lots of blood work and co-pays and appointments…we have a few answers.

1. I had pneumonia. For a Lupus patient, pneumonia is dangerous so that is likely the infection my body was fighting so hard to fight. Since antibiotics, it has calmed down significantly.

2. Did not have HIV, hepatitis, thyroid issues, allergies. Good to know!

3. My CReactive Protein was double signaling inflammation…we knew that so now getting to the root.

4. Waiting on the Celiac Disease test and for the rheumatologist bloodwork to come back. This doctor does not believe I have RA, but does see the Rayneuds, Scloderma and Lupus is highly active. Also needs me to get an eye appointment.

This is why Lupus is so tricky. It masks itself as so many things that baffles even the best doctors.

To be continued.

Health Journey 2

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Doctor visit went well. She saw my concern. My situation is a wasting away disease with no cure but to address the sickness that is causing it.

These pics are a couple years apart but you can see my concern. This size is not me.

I am getting a chest xray, liver screen, kidney screen, cardiac screen, thyroid screen and tons of bloodwork. 9 vials. If all this comes back inconclusive then we will treat the Rheumatoid Arthritis or and Lupus.

So now we wait.

Health Journey

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Today is a big day. Now that school is over and I can focus on me, this is day one of figuring out why I am malnourished and “anorexic” as the doctors say.

I noticed a major change in weight last year around March 2021. By June 2021 I was 96 pounds. In August, I had to buy size 0 pants-even had a size girls 16 that fit. Size hangs off me.

I have always been a solid size 6. Size 4 was my ideal, but I had hips and booty. Not anymore.

This was September 2021. Short, but thick hair. I could wear it down.

It is getting thicker, but still breaking and I have not cut my hair at all…so the thinning and length is all on its own. Weight loss, hair loss, and so much more means time to do some tests.

Pray for answers around 2pm today or at least a step in the right direction.

Looking sick vs Being sick

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I am sick. Lupus does that to you. Most days I do not mind. Most days my disease is manageable. On the hard days, it sucks, but all in all I am blessed. My struggle is silent. I go to work daily. I rarely complain. The people who know the truth are my son and husband. They feel the weight of my lack of energy and overall fatigue. Sad, but true. My job gets the best I can offer while my family suffers.

I started with Plaquenil and it worked until it didn’t. Methotrexate was a no go after a few months. Cellcept lasted a month, but I am stopping it due to excessive hair loss. I am sick, but I refuse to look sick.

This was a good pic of me in November. Hard to believe that was 3 months ago.

I have such thick hair that the hair loss is still somewhat disguisable, but I see it and feel it.

This is Lupus. It is sneaky and complicated and can bring even a confident person to their knees. I am stopping Cellcept until we can start something else. I am willing to endure the temporary pain. Pray with me as we figure this out. I think Benalysta may be next.

Teacher Struggle

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I want to start by saying that this year for me is WAY better than last year, so I am thankful. Last year juggling virtual teaching and student absences while trying to maintain a gradebook was intense. I will always be grateful for my mental health this year, however teachers across the country are abandoning education at a massive rate. I struggled to put into words why…but then a teacher I follow on Twitter said it perfectly…

The teaching game has changed, but the mindsets of those making the decisions and laws have not. They want to “catch up” kids to make them what they use to be and these kids are not what they use to be. Families have changed, education has changed and now laws need to change. The stress being put on teachers to test and perform is breaking our spirits as more hours of tutoring, documentation and building up their SEL is exhausting. I made this TikTok last year I think of one of my favorite Christian songs called Truth Be Known. It sums us up well…looking good, but feeling weak.

https://vm.tiktok.com/TTPdkM82sU/

God is my source of hope and strength so I know my foundation is firm. I have endured this business for 20 years so I know I can endure this valley, but those that do not know any different are walking out at an alarming rate. I get it. I hate it, but I get it.

On another note, wow how Lupus has changed my hair. No clue when my hair began to fall out and thin, but seeing my hair in this Tik Tok is shocking…long, full of volume…this is it today

Not without hope, but definitely not what it was. Crazy how a medicated auto immune disease can do that. My devo today said God has a purpose for my broken body and I am putting all my faith, hope and love that it is true.