We spoke with the birthmother this week and her recent doctor’s appointment went great. She is still expecting to deliver on the tenth and we are hurriedly preparing for a baby over the holidays. Thanks to generous friends, family and strangers we have received furniture, clothes, toys and more. Nathan and I also went out and bought a lot of necessities for the nursery and home. I am now frantically moving our “junk” to make room for his ‘junk”. Never knew how much stuff we had!

I still think about our birth family all the time as I pray that things go smoothly and God’s will be done. Such a bittersweet time for us all. I am so excited to add onto our family, but know that it comes at such a sacrifice and loss for them.   I know it was God’s plan for us to adopt, but there are still so many mixed emotions.  God has prepared for our lives to meet and interconnect in such a miraculous way…yet, I still feel so small in such an extremely large plan.

This will be my last full week of teaching for the next seven weeks. I will miss my class dearly because they are a great group of kids. I pray the substitute will appreciate them and value them as much as I do. I would much rather her be too nice than too mean. I can come back and whip them back into shape, but I want them to still love school. I have pleaded with my parents to be sure the learning continues.

Right now I feel overwhelmed with the huge changes, the many unknowns and the immense outpouring of love. I know God has prepared me for this journey, but I look around my house and see so much to do. I guess every new mom feels like that, so I am no exception.

The good news is: In nine days I will meet our son!